Maybe, nobody realise, that i need to talk to someone. Im slowly dying inside, under my happy facade…
I felt like a scammer, telling people to be optimistic and cheerful but what am i doing here?
Seriously, feeling as if dead alrdy inside…
Cause i’ll nvr be perfect bleh~
however, i oso dun wan to be perfect
But ppl who wish im perfect, i cant disappoint them…
Its too hard
Im giving up
Why force me to things i dun enjoy..
I dun like studying
I act as if i like to please u
Really, i sometimes wonder what i really like
I am not even sure myself
Everyday im reading how bad people life were to convince myself my life is good alrdy
Haha, its nt workin anymore
My house is so cold
Nobody care abt me unless they need, or a short moment if i score nice result
Guess wad, i just score 13/20 for chemistry
How horrible is it i ask…
Im so terrible
Im useless
Yep…
Why?
Cause my existance is too insignificant for anyone to notice
T-T
Funnily, while typing this post, no tears flowed
I must have lost my emotions again
Where is th me who will cry freely?
i changed too much
I wish to be back who i am
Am i really happy after i changed so much?
Well, i hope i am happy…
Sigh~.
So sad, no one will cheer me up when im at my saddest moment
Instead, i have to cheer ppl up when im sad…
And get further agitated by dumb people.
Sianz, fml…
I felt like a scammer, telling people to be optimistic and cheerful but what am i doing here?
Seriously, feeling as if dead alrdy inside…
Cause i’ll nvr be perfect bleh~
however, i oso dun wan to be perfect
But ppl who wish im perfect, i cant disappoint them…
Its too hard
Im giving up
Why force me to things i dun enjoy..
I dun like studying
I act as if i like to please u
Really, i sometimes wonder what i really like
I am not even sure myself
Everyday im reading how bad people life were to convince myself my life is good alrdy
Haha, its nt workin anymore
My house is so cold
Nobody care abt me unless they need, or a short moment if i score nice result
Guess wad, i just score 13/20 for chemistry
How horrible is it i ask…
Im so terrible
Im useless
Yep…
Why?
Cause my existance is too insignificant for anyone to notice
T-T
Funnily, while typing this post, no tears flowed
I must have lost my emotions again
Where is th me who will cry freely?
i changed too much
I wish to be back who i am
Am i really happy after i changed so much?
Well, i hope i am happy…
Sigh~.
So sad, no one will cheer me up when im at my saddest moment
Instead, i have to cheer ppl up when im sad…
And get further agitated by dumb people.
Sianz, fml…