I thought I’ve changed. Turns out a part of me is still the same
I thought I’ve changed for the better after leaving hell. Guess many parts of me is still the same as before.
For one, I’m still as ambitious, still as optimistic, and still failing.
I don’t know why, but I really want to excel in many many different things. I want to be an all-rounder, but everytime I try, I fail. I know my ownself. It is not like I will give up just because I fail. But honestly, when you keep trying but still failing, you will start to doubt your own ability. What if it is not because I’m unlucky?
What if it is just because I’m not as good as others? What if it is just because my standard and ability is not as great?
That will not stop me though. I still want to try. It is better to fail than never try.
But you know what? My personality does not belongs to Poly.
Because in poly, once you fail, you are doomed. In poly, there is no room for failures. You simply do not learn from the failures. You learn from other people failure, and use as a stepping stone to rise up higher.
One mistake and goodbye to yourself.
**Side note, is there some hair code in poly for guys to enter exam hall? I don’t know why but most of the guys in class/buddy class cut their hair and honestly, some look really horrible/weird. Their old hairstyle so nice, why go ruin it because of exam sia. What a waste…
