2 December 2014,
It is December already. How times fly. I mean, I started this blog like the beginning of the year. Can totally remember the day I took my O level result, my tears of joy, the last time I saw him in school uniform, me sealing my fate when I chose my school choices, getting in SPDBS, first day of school, first Shitty GPA Blah blah blah.
I sealed another chapter of my life yesterday, 1 December 2014. I chose my option for next year and I’m going to Med Tech. I may or may not regret but right now I know there is where I belong.
Today morning I wrongly liked someone’s insta pic. I follow the person out of politeness nia, I have no intention of liking any of his pic but fuck. In my blurness in the morning I thought that picture was posted by another person so I liked, and saw the number of likes and I’m like… impossible so I read the name and holy shit wrong person. I like insta post base on 3 things only: 1. 2am/kpop stuff 2. Friends 3. Interesting pic. His pic fell into neither of the category…
[missing photo]
Saw this on Facebook. Haha they missed out Libra. That’s not the main point though. I guess this is quite accurate because everytime I’m angry I rant… This is why I believe in horoscope so much they always hit right on the spot. Have to avoid aries and scorpio omg…
Oh yes, back to the main point…
Wah Im like right now in serious fucking pain. I don’t see why I have to suffer all these shit every 45 days just because I have two x chromosome in my fucking genes. Fucking holy mama try having your cramps plus scoliosis together. This is probably the closest taste of hell. Like cramps only can send numerous weak girls crying already try having the pain in your spine simultaneously. This is what I’m feeling now, and I would like to curse my spine doctor for being a selfish doctor who can’t even treat my spine well. Wasted my 3-4 years suffering by wearing that stupid stiff idiotic white plastic that can’t even improve my condition and right now still need to suffer pains because of this what the fuck yoz.
And I realise I do PMS also but definitely not because of my hormones but because I’m in terrible hell-like pain. Like people, I’m dying and thankyou very much if you cannot see and if you still annoy me by even asking me to get you a tissue or pick up a pen I might just scream straight into your face. I’m sorry but I’m going through hellish pain right now. I swear if this is karma I am probably a Nazi officer in my past life to be put through such pain every 45 days -_-”
Let me try to describe my pain here in english.
Imagine somebody kicking your stomach and squeezing your intestine continuously for hours and hours. And at the same time there is also a force trying to twist your spine. That is what I’m feeling now. How I wish I can just dig out this uterus or womb or whatever fucking nice name this annoying pain machine is called. I wish to dig it out and throw into the bin. How give a fucking care whether I can reproduce or not anyway it will just be another round of pain. I do not want to live a life of pain.
At this point of time I will like to curse the boys out there for happily getting the y chromosome because getting it entitles you to a pain free lifetime. Fuck you all. Especially those who says babies are cute, adorable or whatever fucking positive adjective you can add in here. Because u all never go through this hell. Fucking shit. And you all have lower chance of getting scoliosis also -_-
Only about 1% of the population have scoliosis and I have to be that unlucky 1% 🙁 Why can’t I be like the 1% top student or 1% richest person or 1% talented person… seriously
I’m in serious deep shit pain right now I swear I can strangle a person to death if anyone is nearby…
If there is a way to stop this pain forever, even if I have to cut of whatever shit I will do it because seriously… suffering all these just to have to ability to reproduce? I rather not. FUCK THIS SHIT
