24 March 2015,
You can say that I’m a weakling but I’ve decided to completely give up on studying science already. I’ve worked hard for 8 years, tried my best and achieved a miracle but apparently, I’m still bad in science and maybe this is fate telling me I am not suited for science.
All my life I thought that only science can help the sick and suffering when I grow up. Maybe I am wrong.
Received my shitty GPA yesterday and you can say I gave up hope on science already. My lecturers are heartless and I decided not to pin anymore hope on science if science do not want me.
I’ve decided to change my goal to a new one. But first I need to get my GPA up a little so I can jump course in university.
If my grades allow me, I will apply for NUS FASS (Faculty of Arts and Social Science). I’m not that much of an art person but my humanities is good and I once top my school for that. I guess I can survive in FASS, if I can even get in in the first place.
Provided I can get in, I will probably major in Social Work since my new dream is to be a social worker. I mean, my childhood dream is to help the sick and the suffering, and I’m pretty sure social worker can do that too. I’ll probably also take modules like Korean language (yes, legit module) and psychology and History since yes, I still love history.
I may even learn French and German if I am allowed to take them. I once said my life goal is to speak 4 languages well. So yes, isn’t it cool to take a new language as a module (it is in the GPA too!)?
Oh well, screw science. I’m jumping to do humanities and social science. Because being a social worker is way cooler than being a lab technicians. To be honest, now that I give up on science already, lab technician is just a boring, whole-day-stay-in-lab type of lonely job. Totally not my style if you ask me. I will like to thank SP for letting me realise this earlier before entering university, so I still have a chance to jump and didn’t have to waste a lot of money.
I will not forgive all the lecturers that give me a bad grades too. I will curse you in my dream because you crushed my dreams. Of course you showed me a new path for my future but still, I’m disappointed. Is knowledge more important than efforts? I guess yes it is.
I guess being a social worker will suit me since I like volunteer work since I was like 12. I guess this time, I won’t change my goal anymore. This is a cool job that can inspire many people and change their life. I think this is what I really will want.
I will still finish this stupid diploma. But if my grades drop next semester I will transfer to JC. Now want transfer also too late already. So I shall give my grades one last chance. I must get into NUS FASS. Fuck their biomedical science, I rather get a cool job than to be a miserable back stage worker.
