I feel so cheated.
The FYP project I intially wanted, snatched spotlight.
We didn’t lose due to our skills or grades. If that is the case, 我愿赌服输.
If say theory, my other groupmates are definitely good, or even way better. If say skills, I’m more than confident mine is better.
I can’t believe I lost that project, which I wanted so much, JUST BECAUSE DBS LECTURERS CHOSE TO USE BALLOT TO GIVE US OUR PROJECT.
I have an immense amount of hatred for my lecturers right now.
EEE distribute projects based on the smartest group member’s GPA. Which makes sense, because smarter people deserves better things.
But what is this?
I’m ambitious, I’m greedy. But it is all because biomedical science is a sunset industry and I must survive.
I hate them all.
So what if my lab skills are good. Who is there to see. We’re stuck with a project which we don’t even have passion for.
That project, only my group bid as first choice.
Yet they get it.
I hate them. But I can’t hate them.
I hate how they are getting all the praises which we could have gotten.
I hate how they get the spotlight which should have been ours.
但我心里的不服，又有谁知道。
I’m jealous, I’m envious and all these horrible feelings are going into my head.
How I wish someone talk sense into me.
I never believe in fate. I don’t believe I’m fated to not get that project. I feel unjust.
I hate the lecturers that come up with that methods to give out fyp. If they let us rank the project would have automatically be ours.
I hate DBS. They never gave me any chance. And when there is one and I want to grab it, they take it away from me.
机会是要自己争取的。但你连机会都不肯给我。
我心就像五万个刀同时刺进我的心。可我流出来的血，又有何人知。
