Am I a horrible piece of shit? I haven’t been at my best condition for a while, and to be honest my stresses are piling up real quick. My mood hasn’t been the best too. So when some people sends me useless messages or tries to start a pointless convo with me, it really pissed the shit out of me.
I opened Instagram today hoping to see an update from him but instead all I got was unread messages from another person waiting in my inbox. I know it’s not his fault but I was fuming. I’m fine with getting no story updates from him but I’m too tired and unhappy to entertain other guys that are not considered friends, ya know? It’s terrible on my part but that activated my “back into hermit” mode. Please don’t talk to me if we aren’t friends. I hate small useless talks that serves no purposes. Please don’t slide into my dms/inbox or whatever those are too. I’m really exhausted and anybody that are irrelevant in my life are just a huge bother.
I think taking a break from social media would be good for me. I’m too irritable to be on it.
And yea he finally posted something on his story right before I deactivated my account but heh I’m slowly letting go and giving up already. My brain is clear and I can still take a hint from last week. I don’t wanna be a bother too, so I guess distancing myself is the correct way to go. Was initially planning to use Sunday as an excuse to meet him but sua, I rather not do pointless stuff and just get on with life.
It’s fine. At least I tried. It’s sad but I have no regrets.
On the happier side of life, today is 2am’s 14th debut anniversary
Cues sad, heartbroken themed songs…
It’s about time I go back to listening to sad ballad since life ain’t sweet and happy.
Well, there’s things to look forward to though. I don’t wanna reveal everything lined up for me, but I’m quite excited for the RM stuff at hall. There’s two new RMs joining Garage (and probably many more for CresPion) and new profs too. I was hoping for a girly buddy but I guess not this year. Let’s have a great AY at CresPion hee!
Can’t believe I’ve been here for a year le. Joined CresPion to get over a broken heart, and starting my second AY here having my heart shattered by another dude. Lmao I sure love my life.
Oof and I am so in love with spy x family. I need updates. Immediately!! The anime doesn’t satisfy my craving so I went for the manga and turns out it’s an ongoing series and I’m not getting my happily ever after ending anytime soon